Thursday, February 22, 2018

I Wanna Be Straight

I can't believe it's a year since my last post, sheesh! I've really let things slip. What has happened over the past few months, I really can't remember much. My memory has been crap since being repeatedly electrocuted. I thought I had been mostly down over the past few months but I see at some point I have recorded 3 albums which usually indicates hypomania. To think that I missed that, bummer. Anyway, at the moment I am a bit below par. I am not clinically depressed just a bit of normal unhappiness which is all too familiar to Joe Public. I also have a stinking cold which is not helping things. I am due for a routine physical on Friday, the old bloods and ECG so at least that will get me out of the house for a while.

I can't remember which psychiatrist I had when we last spoke but I think it was my beloved Moonstone Woodstock. Well sadly Moonstone retired but was replaced by the wonderfully kind and sensitive "Sparrow". I was very fond of Sparrow but she too retired to pastures new. I now have "Fancy Prancy Shoes" who always wears wonderful colourful dancing shoes. Sadly Fancy Prancy has gone off on a years maternity leave... or perhaps a 12 month trip to Egypt to buy even fancier shoes.. we just don't know. I now have Mrs Schoolteacher CPN who is a bit of a preacher woman ( unlike the son of the preacher man she is not "the only one who could ever reach me"). Not surprisingly (but not bad news) is that Mrs Schoolteacher has been off sick for the past couple of months only to be replaced by Father Stone who is hardly the most animated person on the planet. To be fair he may be a bit dull but at least he is professional. I am probably just judging him by my bizarre standards and still grieving the loss of my wonderful shrinks.

As well as my Valproate, I am now on Lamotrigine 200mg daily as apparently it is more effective in folks who are predominantly depressed (as I am). I think my mood has been fairly stable over the past year. I have not been in hospital since last summer and have not had any severe mood swings in that time.

So in the meantime I shall try and move on up and try to get straight.

Saturday, April 01, 2017

Ready To Rock

I got my driving licence back on 11th March...whoopee!!!! So am no longer stranded in the middle of nowhere. Since then I have been buzzing. I am sleeping less and less and starting to get involved in music again. My CPN is currently off sick so the shrink came to see me on Tuesday. Unlike me she is concerned that I am becoming hypomanic and has prescribed Diazepam 5-10mg at night to help me get off to sleep. Much to my surprise it is actually working and helping me get off to sleep. However, four to five hours later I am up and ready to rock.

Monday, January 30, 2017

I'm Still Waiting

My wife seems much better now, coming to terms with her dad's death. My mood has improved and I am now on the level. My CPN has asked me to consider trying Lamotrigine again and I'm OK with that.

I am still wrapped up in correspondence with the DVLA regarding my fitness to drive. I last saw my GP on 16.08.16 and my consultant on 14.12.16 (this is a handy reminder for me). I am desperate for them to make a decision so I can begin my sentence. The latest hold up is due to another condition I suffer, atrial fibrillation. They want to make sure I don't suffer blackouts or dizzy spells.