Monday, January 30, 2017

I'm Still Waiting

My wife seems much better now, coming to terms with her dad's death. My mood has improved and I am now on the level. My CPN has asked me to consider trying Lamotrigine again and I'm OK with that.

I am still wrapped up in correspondence with the DVLA regarding my fitness to drive. I last saw my GP on 16.08.16 and my consultant on 14.12.16 (this is a handy reminder for me). I am desperate for them to make a decision so I can begin my sentence. The latest hold up is due to another condition I suffer, atrial fibrillation. They want to make sure I don't suffer blackouts or dizzy spells.

Thursday, December 08, 2016

Cars and Girls

I've fairly settled down since the last post and my mood is now about normal. Unfortunately the team doctor was horrified to learn that I was still driving so that's my licence away again. DVLA have been informed and I shall probably get a 6 month ban which is like a jail sentence in my rural area.

My poor wife is still struggling with her dad's death. She went back to work today and was really not looking forward to it.

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

Grey Day

My father in law died today. He had been ill for sometime and was being nursed at home as he really didn't want to go into hospital. As it was he died peacefully surrounded by his family which was what he wanted but it's obviously still devastating for everyone. I've had to do my best to curb my restlessness and focus on supporting his family. I'm currently taking 200mg Chlorpromazine at night as well as all my usual pills. Last week they were threatening to take me into hospital and add some Olanzapine as I was not sleeping and getting pretty exhausted. I feel guilty at the moment as despite the family trauma my head is still buzzing. I am trying my best to help my wife through this but my head is still full of music. I just hope I can contain myself over the next few days.